The only reason I work during exams (I'd rather be sleeping )

Oh alas , 'tis exam season . Sigh ... I have abandoned all deep introspection to fill my mind with facts on Mitochondria and the French Revolution . It is sad but one must go on with life . It's that time of year when all the older people around me say that I should work hard and make them proud. Honestly , I am very selfish when it comes to dedicating effort to other people because I see little point in it (But I wouldn't tell them that because that's just rude  - I nod instead  ). I wouldn't do it for someone else but I would for myself .

 I don't think that our lives and careers should be centered on pleasing other people . I wouldn't study medicine or accounting  or rocket science just to please my parents ( also  - I suck at Maths and would fail miserably )  but instead I want to please myself and do something that makes me want to wake up and rush to work every morning  . I mean , isn't that what really matters . If you do what you love , then everything else falls into place because you aren't dreading what happens next .

I know this sounds rich coming from me , a sheltered , loudmouth teenager who hasn't lived yet . But I think that my philosophy keeps me going . It's not about where I'm at at the moment but where I want to be . Logically , one should work hard to get there , and I understand that . However , these sentiment's do not occur during an exam . Instead , you watch the clock tick painfully and wait .

After checking my paper three times , I'm sure that my answer is either right or wrong , regardless of how many times I stare at the page covered in blotted letters and scratched out answers . And as the invigilators walk past , you wonder if they are just as bored as you are . There is this rare feeling of euphoria you feel as soon as that bell rings to signal the end .  It's knowing that you tried hard and right now couldn't care less about Blood or The rise of Communism . I usually turn around and give my best friend a look that says " Sigh , how'd you find that paper ? " .

Right now , mid-exam period , I 'm swamped and really shouldn't be blogging but cest la vie ! Am trying to figure out how I'm going manage my Art practical , because the idea of drawing myself isn't to pretty .

Next time someone says to work hard for them , I'll try to think of a way to explain my self-motivation theory . Because at ten at night , when your eyes are closing slowly , you couldn't be bothered by your promise to someone else . So go ahead , and for once , do something for yourself !