So I took a break from writing, not the usual kind where you just don't have the time to write or it's just writers block. No I took some time where even when I wanted to write, I did not let myself. I stepped back, closed off my blog and took time to figure things out. It was better than I expected to be.
Sometimes we need to step back, get perspective. I had to grow up a little and forgive the world for not being as pretty as I'd like it to be. Forgiveness is a powerful thing, it seeps into the cracks and gives you the healing you need. I needed that time to be angry and hurt but I also needed to remember that it was destructive to pick at scabs. I needed to learn to forgive by letting go of things things that caused resentment in me, it weighed me down and it dragged me so so deep. Often we picture our distress to be so intertwined with our psyches that we cannot imagine untangling them from ourselves. We can.
I looked back at a lot of my older posts (deleted a few, edited some others), and it dawned on me that I forgot to see the world as beautiful despite its inherent flaws. I used to be so so passionate about my ideals and of late, I have betrayed some of them by allowing the unimportant take precedence and I allowed negativity to reverberate through my being.
And the result of my little break (let's face it, I couldn't stay away for too long) was a bit of a change on here (notice the name that reminds us all to laugh during our cynicism) and some daisies scattered around for ambiance.I'm filled to the brim with some new things I really want to talk (read as "rant") about, laugh with you about the morbid awful side of life and generally good intentions that involve giving myself and those around me a chance.
Kintsugi is a form of Japanese art where broken or cracked pieces of ceramic pots are repaired with gold. We need to forgive ourselves for falling down, celebrate our scars and allow our plans to change. We need to fill our cracks with gold so we don't forget that we are beautiful in spite of them. I found stillness in the melee and have started to blow on the embers that light my passion for life again.
So, in short and basically the point of this, hello again my dear friend. It's so good to see you.
All my love
